01: Don’t You Wonder Sometimes?

Hello. My name is Elizabeth. I am 29, I own a friendly chihuahua and a little black cat. My soon-to-be husband and I work in the animation industry, and due to a bizarre series of events over the past 2 years, I am crawling out of my introverted shell to create a blog (and eventually/hopefully) a Youtube Channel with the aim of analyzing and documenting the many curious findings I’ve uncovered related to the greatly missed musician and artist, David Bowie.

Before you read further, I feel I should mention that I’ve never considered myself a “superfan” of Bowie’s in the traditional sense. My mother grew up in the 70’s and she was a big fan of his as a teenager, but while I grew up listening to his music and would happily name him as an artistic inspiration, Bowie was never an obsession for me or anything. I’m sure many of you can relate to some degree.

Well all of that jumped out the window when my fiance came across something… “interesting”, and we just could not look away. It was like we had stumbled across a rabbit hole, or a labyrinth(!) and the further along we went, we realized it just… Kept… Going…

What spurred this whole thing on will be discussed later, but because of it, I am now one of those strange people – a collector – someone who owns a large collection of David Bowie albums, publications, films, and other oddities. How I came to own such a collection is a story of its own, in fact it is the story, but for now, here’s a glimpse of some of the collection just to give you an idea:

This is was taken in 2017 and is like… 1/5 of the amount of records that I currently own? I’m bad at math and need to do a proper inventory.
This was taken last week and is about 1/2 of the full collection.

OK so that’s pretty cool. But if I just wanted to brag about the stupid amount of Bowie music I own, I’d have created a post on Reddit, but an entire blog dedicated to showing off? That’d get old pretty quick.

No Dear Reader, instead this project is about detailing some of the heart-wrenchingly beautiful messages, chilling revelations, and straight-up ALIEN shit we have uncovered in Bowie’s work. The sheer magnitude of it is one of those things that, if I were to go on an uninterrupted rant about it, it would literally take days to get from the beginning to where we are today. Since most of this stuff is lurking in the physical media (CD’s, Vinyl Records, and some tapes) and many do not have access to those things, I also thought it might be fun to share and talk about some of the rarer items in the collection with other interested fans.

Basically I can’t afford to alienate the small number of friends I still have by talking their ear off about this shit anymore, so I came here instead to attempt to share some of my collection with you fine people, and lay some of it out there in case there are others out there in the dark who may find this sort of thing as strange and fascinating as I do.

Anyway, in case it isn’t clear enough:

This is not a David Bowie Fan Page.

Lord knows there are enough of those as it is, and other blogs like Pushing Ahead of the Dame cover the nuts and bolts of each song from a musical and historical standpoint way better than I ever could. I decided to add my voice to the pile, because the more I researched about the man, the more I found myself becoming frustrated that pretty much all of the conversation surrounding Bowie covers the same things:

  • Ziggy was great. Like so SO great. David Bowie was So creative and weird and his fashion sense was just WOW.”
  • “Look at all these different characters. Halloween Jack. So creative and a brilliant timeless artist. RIP Starman.”
  • “Did you know about (Insert tabloid rumor/rampant drug use and/or wild lifestyle choice) HE WAS SO CRAZY/AHEAD OF HIS TIME. RIP STARMAN.”
  • The REAL Berlin Trilogy is The Idiot, Low and Heroes
  • Unpopular Opinion: (Generally Beloved Album) is actually really good

Not that any of that is bad or wrong, the guy was a timeless alien rock God who came from space and flipped the music industry on its head… But it’s also literally the exact same stuff they were talking about 5-10-20 years ago, with a *~RIP STARMAN~* tacked on at the end. It’s been awhile since something new has been added to the conversation. Why doesn’t anyone talk about some of the more esoteric messages in his work? Ya know, something that really digs into the Occult philosophy that resonates throughout all of his albums instead of just throwing Crowley’s name and the Kabbalah out there and calling it a day? Or what is actually going on with Philip Jeffries? Or an analysis of the meta-performance of David Bowie himself? Or the many still-hidden easter eggs peppered in throughout his work? Can ANYONE out there explain to us why some of his albums are SO good, while others are SO not good?

… Or why early Davy is so…. Davy?

Surely this will sell millions of records!
WHY has no one pointed out how bulbous his head is in this early single?

Or something that looks deeper into his completely unmarketable fascination with Bertoldt Brecht and other more obscure playwrights?

Or why the whole China Girl thing is so predatory and off-putting?

Oh shit, he heard me. He’s coming this way isn’t he?

No? No one? Well, okay.

Instead we had to find answers to all those questions (and all the questions raised by the answers to those questions) by ourselves. We had to experiment with the albums and read books and lose our minds in the process. Though that seems to be the point of the journey, it still would’ve been nice to have had a guide! We waited for 2 years to see if somebody more qualified than us would come out of the woodwork and point out the Giant Lovecraftian Horror in the center of the room, but nope! Guess it’s our turn to be the crazy ranting people on the internet this time!

But on a more serious note, there are truly so many layers to his body of work and so often it seems like the deeper underlying message and his warm sense of humor completely gets overlooked in favor of the flash and glam. And for those of us that do love Bowie, I find that many will often choose to ignore when he’s being intentionally petulant or creating music that’s just straight-up difficult to enjoy. Often the conversation will stop there and not look deeper into why he made these things sound the way they did. Now that he has passed on, I think it’s about time that we take a fine-toothed comb to his career as an artist and really start investigating why he made these creative decisions.

I’ll go into this further in my next post, but it’s my hypothesis that he intended for his body of work to only make sense after his death.

Feeling cute, might die later. 😘

When you research something or someone, there comes a point where you run out of voices of authority on the subject, and when that happens you either move on to something else or turn around and become an informant for others. While I’ve chosen the latter option and am clearly passionate about this very niche subject, I am also completely new to blogging/vlogging, so I apologize if it takes me a little bit to find my footing.

I do not plan to give away everything we have found, as I firmly believe that the mystery itself is what’s most important, and some especially hard-won revelations should not be handed out on a silver platter, but if we can pique others’ curiosity in some way, then this will have been a success.

So that’s why I’m here and that’s what I’m trying to do with this blog. If you’ve read this far, then thank you for hearing me out and I will do my best not to disappoint. If this doesn’t work out, then I can always resort to my backup plan of streaming myself playing Oblivion or “Omikron the Nomad Soul” on Ambien for spare change.

My next post will be analyzing Blackstar as well as detailing the many hidden easter eggs and messages contained in the album. Then we’ll see where the super massive black hole takes us from there. Until then, I’d be happy to answer any questions relating to the collection or this project.


Next post: What a fantastic death abyss

24 thoughts on “01: Don’t You Wonder Sometimes?

  1. I’m excited to see the stuff you dig up. I’ve been a huge David fan for about 7 years now and I’m continually finding myself further and further down the rabbit hole.

    Also I’m all for that ambien Omikron stream, sounds like top notch content.

    *RiP sTaRmAN*

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    1. Right?! I mean, I gotta give the people what they want, and if it turns out that the people want to see me kill my horse/self by jumping off of mountains repeatedly while muttering about my crackpot Bowie conspiracy theories, then by jove they shall get it!


  2. That was a great read. Been collecting Bowie for just forty years. Good luck with your endeavors, I’ll be waiting in the wings for the time you post next!

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    1. 40 years is impressive! Thank you for the kind words, I hope by doing this that I can help people get more out of their own Bowie collections. 🙂


  3. This sounds like the beginning of a wild ride! Have fun, and remember, this is YOUR rollercoaster. Just like Bowie, you stick to your vision and do what you want to do — whether it’s weird instrumentation, change in style, trying to become super-trendy for about three albums, or just conveying the music in your soul to the outer world.

    Bowie was so fascinated by the demi-monde and the dirty underlayers of life, yet he made them cool and palatable (at least, he had a fairly good success rate). Dystopia is really Not My Cup of Tea, yet, becoming a Bowie fan has led me into some very dark corners, and I’ve managed to escape unscathed (so far). I mean, from the blurb, *Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence* sounds like the last movie I’d ever want to watch (war movie, Japanese honor, blah-blah-blah), but it’s totally watchable for me. I may even watch it a third time around Christmas. I look forward to seeing how you processed some of this darkness and horror.

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  4. If there’s one thing I can assure you it’s that Twin Peaks fans are CONSTANTLY wondering about Jeffries, and the fact that Bowie couldn’t appear in The Return only extended the mystery 😉 For example, on Reddit 😉 https://old.reddit.com/r/twinpeaks/search?q=jeffries&restrict_sr=on&sort=relevance&t=all

    (coincidentally, I also found your blog via Reddit, David Bowie subreddit)

    Looking forward to reading, I was just thinking of relistening Blackstar the other day, but now I’m keeping it on hold 🙂

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    1. Oh it’s true. And I can’t blame them, it’s quite a mystery. Still, I think we’ve discovered some information that may be of use to Twin Peaks fans trying to decode the dark meaning of that enigmatic series.

      Thank you for reading!

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    1. Thank you for the kind words. At this point we’ve been at it for such a long time that we’ve developed our own method for seeking certain things out. A lot of it these days is running off of intuition. Will be talking more about that in the future!


  5. I’ve just found your site: there does seem to be a sub-rosa cult of Bowie fanciers among the animation community. I’m the one who sneaked him into an episode of “Sofia The First.”

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    1. Nice to meet another Bowie/animation person in the wild! Venture Bros aside, his fingerprints are all over Japanese animation. That’s a topic that could easily stretch over way too many posts to count


    1. Good question. My username there is elastical_gomez. Right now I just have the Reality album and Baal up, but we plan on adding Earthling there shortly


  6. What an enchanting discovery. I have been fascinated with Bowie since discovering him as a ten year old way back in 1980. Doesn’t look like anything is going to change that anytime soon. God bless you all.

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